I used to skip Uni to stay and do nothing, I used to skip appointments and deadlines and call in sick to work to do nothing. I quit work- to do nothing. The more time I've spent doing so, the more I've become bored with it. My best friend recently got a letter getting him … Continue reading Doing nothing is not satisfying.
Seriously, so my pain that I get so often it caused me to start taking drugs and landed me in this cycle of sobriety, relapses, comedowns, withdrawals, sobriety and relapse again- I decided to try again with a doctor. I guess you can't always expect doctors to be nice, but seriously, as least pretend you … Continue reading NHS staff, ugh
Look, if you wanna make your new years eve wondering what amazing things you can do next year (now this year), do it. I'm not being sarcastic. I was once somebody who spent ages writing new years resolutions and I prayed to God to be a better person and respect life and Him more, it … Continue reading New year, same old me
Just a random update/thought. Once again I am going to let work down, because I was too busy doing my make up and other things. I guess I'm just fed up of being a failure and letting everybody down. I want to be a happy healthy 22 year old but instead I'm working in retail … Continue reading Late to work again
So on my past post I spoke about the fact that I had just not turned up to work, and when asked, made a stupid excuse about not realising I was in. I don't know whether to feel relieved or guilty that they were nice to me. The woman on the phone said it was … Continue reading I actually attended work this time
I feel awful. I feel great. However juxtaposed that is, it's true. I feel awful. Today I missed work. I didn't call them, I actually turned my phone off. This is something the old me would have done. On Tuesday my sister called in sick to work, and that day I really didn't want to … Continue reading I skipped work again today
At University I remember collapsing when going to get some water. I'd taken a mix of benzos and some painkillers. I always took benzos at uni because otherwise my hands shook, I stumbled on my words, I felt like I couldn't face it without being numb. The first aid man came and took me to … Continue reading Another drug story- University