Sorry I haven't wrote in a while. There's so much that has gone on and I just haven't put anything about it. I think I mentioned I have a boyfriend now? Yeah it's that guy who I've mentioned many times as my best friend. He still is, he's just my boyfriend now too. I'm still … Continue reading I’m alive
Sometimes I wonder why I ever go to anybody for help or advice, or complain about something, because they answers are always the same. "It'll work out" "you'll be okay" "don't worry" "i'm here for you". Great thanks... how? How do you know it'll be okay and everything will work out? What do you know … Continue reading Why does everybody give generic advice
So I'm losing things. I'm losing people. I'm losing myself. I lost my job a couple of years ago, because I stopped turning up after collapsing from overdoses on more than one occasion, whilst at work (unbeknownst to my colleagues), and my anxiety became too much. They rang me, texted me, and finally, sent me … Continue reading I want to care
Just a random update to any random viewers who may have read my previous post. I'm okay, nothing happened. My package is still being held but it's not as frightening anymore because I gathered the courage to tell my mother that there may be a package at any day or time and to please not … Continue reading Update- I didn’t die
Before about an hour ago I never knew the true meaning of pacing. Not because I'd never heard the definition or watched somebody pace or know what it means to pace, but because I realised I'd never actually done it before. I'd never paced up and down a hallway or kitchen (as I did today), … Continue reading I have literally no-one to turn to and nowhere to go
I'm a big girl, no denying, no question. I hate my weight and pretty much everything about myself but my weight is the first I want to sort. Recently, I joined a group which you pay each time, weigh yourself on their proper scales, and each week talk about recipes that are completely healthy according … Continue reading Finally losing weight!
I wish I could hear the clock ticking at night and not count every tick and tock knowing morning will soon once again arrive I wish I could sit with my family without my mind begging the time to go faster so it's time for bed I wish when I went to bed I also … Continue reading I wish