Sorry I haven't wrote in a while. There's so much that has gone on and I just haven't put anything about it. I think I mentioned I have a boyfriend now? Yeah it's that guy who I've mentioned many times as my best friend. He still is, he's just my boyfriend now too. I'm still … Continue reading I’m alive
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Why does everybody give generic advice
Sometimes I wonder why I ever go to anybody for help or advice, or complain about something, because they answers are always the same. "It'll work out" "you'll be okay" "don't worry" "i'm here for you". Great thanks... how? How do you know it'll be okay and everything will work out? What do you know … Continue reading Why does everybody give generic advice
I want to care
So I'm losing things. I'm losing people. I'm losing myself. I lost my job a couple of years ago, because I stopped turning up after collapsing from overdoses on more than one occasion, whilst at work (unbeknownst to my colleagues), and my anxiety became too much. They rang me, texted me, and finally, sent me … Continue reading I want to care
I have literally no-one to turn to and nowhere to go
Before about an hour ago I never knew the true meaning of pacing. Not because I'd never heard the definition or watched somebody pace or know what it means to pace, but because I realised I'd never actually done it before. I'd never paced up and down a hallway or kitchen (as I did today), … Continue reading I have literally no-one to turn to and nowhere to go
Meant to Be
For his attention
She fight
Without his approval
Her dreams would not catch flight
Self-sabotaging rendered her insane
Poison flowed through her veins
Risking a life she could not love
Losing faith of anyone above
A father who belittled his daughter
Confusing her was the pain
She sought in others a fragile love
The one missing from within
Disposing of men
Forbidden sin
He set an example forever ingrained
Love equals pain
The rejection of his affection left her exposed
Substance she snorts up her nose
Numbing the pain
Heartbreak upon heartbreak she gain
A constant battle with her brain
A destiny to heal her heart
Finding herself falling apart
She doesn’t know where to start
Forgiveness is key
In being set free
And unlocking who she is meant to be
New year, same old me
Look, if you wanna make your new years eve wondering what amazing things you can do next year (now this year), do it. I'm not being sarcastic. I was once somebody who spent ages writing new years resolutions and I prayed to God to be a better person and respect life and Him more, it … Continue reading New year, same old me
A belated Merry Christmas
Well on my journey to work on Christmas Eve I wrote some of a blog post, and since then it's disappeared into the abyss, so I'll start again, just kinda, really late. Actually it was a blessing I didn't finish that on Christmas Eve morning, when it was wet and the busses were barely running … Continue reading A belated Merry Christmas
