Just a random update to any random viewers who may have read my previous post. I'm okay, nothing happened. My package is still being held but it's not as frightening anymore because I gathered the courage to tell my mother that there may be a package at any day or time and to please not … Continue reading Update- I didn’t die
I wish I could hear the clock ticking at night and not count every tick and tock knowing morning will soon once again arrive I wish I could sit with my family without my mind begging the time to go faster so it's time for bed I wish when I went to bed I also … Continue reading I wish
I used to skip Uni to stay and do nothing, I used to skip appointments and deadlines and call in sick to work to do nothing. I quit work- to do nothing. The more time I've spent doing so, the more I've become bored with it. My best friend recently got a letter getting him … Continue reading Doing nothing is not satisfying.
Just a random update/thought. Once again I am going to let work down, because I was too busy doing my make up and other things. I guess I'm just fed up of being a failure and letting everybody down. I want to be a happy healthy 22 year old but instead I'm working in retail … Continue reading Late to work again
So on my past post I spoke about the fact that I had just not turned up to work, and when asked, made a stupid excuse about not realising I was in. I don't know whether to feel relieved or guilty that they were nice to me. The woman on the phone said it was … Continue reading I actually attended work this time
I feel awful. I feel great. However juxtaposed that is, it's true. I feel awful. Today I missed work. I didn't call them, I actually turned my phone off. This is something the old me would have done. On Tuesday my sister called in sick to work, and that day I really didn't want to … Continue reading I skipped work again today
At University I remember collapsing when going to get some water. I'd taken a mix of benzos and some painkillers. I always took benzos at uni because otherwise my hands shook, I stumbled on my words, I felt like I couldn't face it without being numb. The first aid man came and took me to … Continue reading Another drug story- University